Swimming with an anchor

aaaah I'm trying not to make everything dark and depressing. Today I had nothing to go on, absolutely nothing. My Mom came and helped me with the last of the digging in the garden stuff, and i made a trip to the store. Otherwise I've just been sitting in that damn sofa.

I have so many ideas and dreams, and days like this are so awful. Because I know my potential. And it's so sad to watch myself struggle to get up.

But now at least everything is ready for the electrician to come.